Friday, December 26, 2008
Sometimes the place we have to be in does not necessarily need to be the place we want to be in.
That is the simplest phrase I have ever heard in my entire life and yet it's the most profound thing I've heard in ages as well.
My God, that is so totally not of my own understanding nor wisdom. That's so totally trademark of Someone Up There.
(ooh capitals look cool haha)
But yeah, as I look back over my life, especially of this year, I realize the solidity of that statement.
There are a lot of times in our lives that we find ourselves fighting to do the very least of drifting in a sea of disappointment and hurt. Those times are the very times that we don't want to be in and yet they are the very situations that grow us, that develops in us a stronger character that will see us through the next level in our faith. Because by our very human nature, it is in times of despair that we realize how fragile everything we have is and begin to just invest all of ourselves in Him. And that's when He can teach us.
And then there are times in our lives where we feel that we're thrust into a world that we feel that we're not ready for. Or worse, into a world which you only have a miserable ounce of feelings for; not the heady youthful passion which will push you to the limits of best. Who in their sane mind would want to be there?
And yet, it is in those unsure times that we realize that we're totally and utterly lost without God's help. It's in those times that we understand the meaning of humility; to completely abandon ourselves to Him and His guidance. We're no longer swaggering our abilities, instead we're made aware of our weaknesses... yet they're weaknesses that are made whole in Him.
So yeah, sometimes the place we have to be in is the very place we don't want to be in.
But you know what?
Because I know what are the rewards I'd reap at the very end, I'd weather the ordeal.
Siaw Hui
She thanks her Jesus at 2:37 AM
