Sunday, August 31, 2008
about a year ago, i was sitting on a plane, headed for home.
i had spent half the day milling around airports, playing out transit times that all i could think of on this final leg of the journey was to just get over it as soon as possible so that i could be home with family.
halfway through the flight however, the plane hit major turbulence that had me literally closing my eyes and praying that everything would be all right. and i remember thinking, over and over again: please Lord please Lord ...
and then the passenger next to me spoke up and i opened my eyes, only to realize that she was speaking to her partner next to her.
"isn't it amazing? in such a turbulence and on such a dark night as this, the pilot can't really see anything and yet he still has to fly on, guided by only his instruments."
and that was when God started to speak to me...
how many times in our lives do we feel that we're flying solo? that we're lurching on in the dark? how often do we feel that the situation is way bigger than us? that we could so easily get lost because we don't know where we're heading...but know this, despite the fact that you can't see and that you don't understand, know this:that God has a plan for your life, a purpose for you. He has a destination for you and believe me, it's a great place. But sometimes, you just can't see it from where you're standing or maybe, you're just halfway there. so just press on. because like the pilot in turbulence whose own human senses cannot help him, sometimes all our logic and all our earthly knowledge cannot figure out what's going on. but just like the pilot who relies on his plane's instruments which can pick up things beyond his senses to fly on, we need to rely on God who is able to look way and beyond our current position to move on.He will see you through :)
She thanks her Jesus at 6:51 PM
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
"Love is not merely the presence of sincere and heart felt words towards another; it does not only account for the sharing and baring of your soul... but it is also seen in the way you behave and act towards the other: genuine and selfless."thank you God because that just reminds me once again that actions speak WAY louder than words sometimes. :)
and because sometimes, the world drowns out what you're saying, and you're not able to love through your words.
but the world can never close off their hearts to receive your acts of kindness.
Labels: Love, Random revelations
She thanks her Jesus at 11:01 AM
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Esther 3:13"Dispatches were sent by couriers to all the king's provinces with the order to destroy, kill and annihilate all the Jews - young and old, women and little children - on a single day, the thirteenth day of the twelfth month, the month of Adar, and to plunder their goods."Esther 4: 1 - 8"When Mordecai learned of all that had been done, he tore his clothes, put on sackcloth and ashes, and went out into the city, wailing loudly and bitterly.But he went only as far as the king's gate, because no one clothed in sackcloth was allowed to enter it.In every province to which the edict and order of the king came, there was great mourning amongst the Jews, with fasting, weeping and wailing. Many lay in sackcloth and ashes.When Esther's maids and eunuchs came and told her about Mordecai, she was in great distress. She sent clothes for him to put on instead of his sackcloth, but he would not accept them.Then Esther summoned Hathach, one of the king's eunuchs assigned to attend her and ordered him to find out what was troubling Mordecai and why.So Hathach went out to Mordecai in the open square of the city i front of the king's gate.Mordecai told him everything that had happened to him, including the exact amount of money Haman had promised to pay into the royal treasury for the destruction of the Jews.He also gave him a copy of the text f the edict for their annihilation, which had been published in Susa, to show to Esther and explain it to her, and he told him to urge her to go into the king's presence to beg for mercy and plead with him for her people."when i first read this, i wondered to myself: why did Esther do what she did when she first heard about Mordecai and his state of distress?
i mean, the girl must be pretty thick-headed if you try to visualize what must have happened in the king's palace when she first heard about Mordecai...
Esther's maids: Queen Esther! Queen Esther! We have something to tell you about Mordecai!
Esther: what's happened then?
maids: He's standing outside the king's gates, wearing this sackcloth and he's just bawling his eyes out! We don't know why... but he's just wailing and thrashing himself!
Esther: Oh, okay, hmm... right. Just get him a new, clean set of clothes yeah?
know what i mean?
in real life, if i were to see someone on the brink of what looks like visual depression, i wouldn't really bother about what they're wearing, i would care more about what has CAUSED them to actually get into that state of emotion.
which was why my next question was: oh God, why did Esther do that? why didn't she ask her maids to find out WHY Mordecai was upset instead of trying to fix his clothes?
and the answer that came back to me was extremely simple, such that it just serves as a stark reminder.
sometimes, in this world, instead of trying to find out what someone's problem is, we try to FIX the physical manifestation of the person's problem.
for example:
it's a brilliant day. you feel on top of the world and you're walking through a park (carlton gardens! hahaha okay okay, i'm kidding) to get home. you CAN"T wait to go home because there's this fat chocolate muffin that siaw hui has made for you sitting in the fridge...
okay, i'd try this again shall i? XD
all right, so, you're cutting through the park and you're happy. and then, you walk past a girl crying on the bench. she isn't a complete stranger to you now. she's someone you see everyday in your faculty; you know her name, you say hi and talk the surface talk you talk ... but now, she's sitting on the park bench, bawling her little eyes out. she's completely and utterly alone in that huge park.
what would you do?
would you go to her and say: uhm... are you okay?
she'd probably say, while wiping her tears away: it's all right. i'm fine.
or would you profer some tissues, going: here now, take these and wipe those tears away. don't cry all right?
she'd probably take the tissues and wipe her tears dry. then she'd probably say: thank you. and if you follow that up with a: you're welcome. and say, is there anymore that i can do? she'd probably say: no and you'd probably leave.
or maybe you'd say: look here, don't cry. everything will turn out to be okay?
now, that's what i call dealing with the physical manifestations of the problem only.
look here, no one cries without a reason do they? the girl might be crying because she's just been ditched by her boyfriend (that'd be a classic reason now won't it?). or she might be crying because her mummy's just passed away. or she might be crying because she just realized she's gotten pregnant out of wedlock and now she doesn't know what to do...
there's nothing wrong with helping ppl cry or helping them STOP cry, but that'd just be like Esther saying: Mordecai, don't walk around in that sackcloth now. Here are some better clothes for you.
but then, that's it isn't it?
the girl may stop crying. Mordecai might have taken those clothes and worn it. but does it stop both their hearts from continuing to break with sadness?
no, it will not.
because their internal problems haven't been fixed. because no one has tried to ask: what's wrong with you? tell me why are you crying? tell me, why are you in that sack cloth and pottering around with tears in your eyes, Mordecai? maybe i can help you understand all this. maybe i can help you. tell me, i want to listen, i want to get involved.
granted, there's always a chance that they tell you: go away, nothing's wrong. but there also is a chance that they will recognize that willingness of yours to get involved with their lives and tell you what's wrong. and if you can help them, kudos, they'd stop crying. and their hearts will stop breaking because there's someone there willing to help them work through it.
i feel that, too many times in this world, people just try to fix up the outer problems and then pat themselves on the back saying: well done, well done, we just solved that when they haven't. all they've done is fix things up superficially.
because it's so much easier to just tell ppl to do things, make ppl do things. it's so much easier to stand on the outside and offer your comfort.
but it's much harder to get involved with the person, listen to the problems without a judging heart and expend your effort to help the person.
but that's what we've been called to do as children of God isn't it?
we've been called to love others despite of who they are.
and what's love without devoting yourself to those who need you?
Labels: Book of Esther
She thanks her Jesus at 9:31 PM
